Whoo!

It has been a while since I have posted.  Heres my new post hope you enjoyed it!

~ Nae

Allie

So I forgot to mention Allie in my last post.  I realize how stupid that must make me look because Allie and I are super close.  She is one of my best buds.  I dont know what I would do if I didn't have all those inside jokes with her.  I love it how we dont have to do anything and we can just be super boring but have butt loads of fun.  I love my Allie.  And I love all the spagehtti-o's!  Love you girl friend

Now I see you.. Now you don't?

You know Bernard Meltzer tells us, "A true friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."  Funny thing is I am still waiting to hear someone yell back at me telling me the lyrics.  I guess that is a sign from the universe telling me that my true friend list is dwindling. I know that my friends are changing and think that if I am no longer good enough for them that they were never a real friend to begin with.  I don't know how else to describe what I feel but simply that change happens, it has too... so I have come to realize.  For better or worse things change.  In the movie Soul Surfer the youth leader of the church tells the kids that when you look at something up close you may not be able to make out what it is.  However if we try to look at the bigger picture we will find a better perspective.  So that's what I have done.  I got a new perspective.  This time I am looking at everything from all angles.  And I have decided things have changed.  There is nothing I can do to change, change.  So all I can do is help myself lead with a blind eye.  Adversity comes from us at all angles.  What we can do to get a perspective on it is to CHANGE it.  I keep telling myself "find the positive in it Shanae.  Because otherwise you will become susceptible to the Adversaries fiery darts." I don't want to be hit by anything on fire.  Now I have learned change isn't a bad thing.  Although I am in a rocky roller coaster I know that eventually the rocking has to stop.  God won't give me anything I cant handle.  I have a support structure around helping me too.  Although my true friend list may be dwindling I know there are those who wouldn't trade me for anything in the world no matter how flawed I am.  I thank all of those who have been a constant support for me, rooting me on.  My entire family has been there.  I know that things don't always go smooth in the Hansen house but I know that love remains here.  We all have each others backs.  I want to say that I REALLY love my Parents.  I know that my dad and I don't always get along but I love him so much.  I love how he can turn any situation into a joke.  I learned how to laugh at anything from my dad and that has become a useful trait in my life.  Thanks dad.  And Mom  I want you to know that I really really love our long talks we have.  They don't even have to be of anything important and I find sheer pleasure in them.  I think of all those girls who don't have a relationship with their moms and I feel that they are missing out on one of the most spiritual bonds anyone can have with another human being.  My spiritual bond with my mom is so strong.  And I a grateful for everything that my mom does for me and all that she has given up to give me things.  I Love you so much mom.  Thanks for helping shape me into who I am. Because I have learned to love me.  I also want to thank my Friends.  Kallie I know that over this past while we have become super close.  I know that we have our moments of sarcasm but I know that you are there for me and will listen to me when I need an ear or two.  I can always count on you. I hope that our bond of friendship will remain true for eternity.  Because if the rest of the world had a friend like you there would be no more war.  You bring logic to any situation no matter how messed up or complicated or dramatic.  I love you girl.  And Colleen I know we haven't been super close but I appreciate your sense of humor.  I know lots of people don't understand my jokes or don't care.  But I can count on at least some kind of reaction from you.  And I want you to know just how much it means to me that you will be my defending voice when I am not there to defend myself.  You are a true hero in my eyes.  Thanks for being my extra support structure.  And to my dear friends Lizzy, Emilee and Jana, I love all you girls.  Seeing your faces makes me happy because I can see the light of Christ in all your eyes.  You make amazing Latter Day Saints and I am a blessed girl to be able to know you guys.  I always keep you in my thoughts and my prayers.  If you took the time to read this I hope you at least enjoyed it.  Thanks. :)

Love Shanae

Enough Already!

I wish people cared enough to just tell me to my face that they dont want to be friends anymore. That would be far less painful and a lot less stress for me to worry about.  So we're friends...awesome. If you accept that do it wholeheartedly. Cause I dont want fake friends, fake friends are loose ends and will be sniped. Fair warning.

Tighty Whites!

Things are tight and its tough. No details needed there.  Ugh and school starts soon.  No good.

Difficult

Why do difficult things always seem to happen to me.  Things in my life just end up being so inconveinient.  And kallie if you read this post I will be more than happy to write a big long mushy one about you.  I am just not in the mood today.  And am super duper irriated at people.


The end

Have a nice day!

The Story of Us....

~ Chapter One
Girl Meets boy
Falls Head Over Heels
Sparks Start to fly

~ Chapter Two
Girl become confused
Guy sends mixed messages
Girl makes first move

~ Chapter Three
Boys Accepts girls Offer
Sweeps her off her feet
Girl plays dumb.....
Girl is dumb.

~ Chapter Four
Guy hates girl
Girl hates guy more
Girl cries....alot

~ Chapter Five
Girl Sees Guy
With Another Girl
Girl Heartbroken
Girl Wonders what went wrong

~ Last Chapter
Girl avoids guy
Girl feels regret
Girl gets mad
Girl lets guy go...........

The End